PANDA IS MISSED <3

2009-09-29T21:43:00.003+08:00

Tonight is a good night to die romantic

Tonight is a good night to die romantic
Tonight is a good night to die romantic

Tonight is a good night to die romantic

Tonight is a good night to die romantic

2009-08-19T00:48:00.005+08:00

sometimes , i just sit back and wonder ;
if i would just one day just close my eyes and never get to open them again .
would i regret not doing anything , not saying anything ?
and never get a chance to even do/say them again .

and then , i'm pulled back into reality ,
and my heart tells me , anything can happen ; really .
so , i don't want to live to regret .
if i can tell you how much i love you today ,
i'll tell you how much i love you TODAY .
not tomorrow , not the day after .
because tomorrow might never come .

if tomorrow never came ,
then , Zandy , do know that i love you ,
so much , but never too much .
i love you more today , then yesterday ,
more now , then 3 seconds before .
and if tomorrow comes ,
i'll love you more then i did today .

i love you (:

2009-07-16T21:24:00.002+08:00

Sorry i've MIAed ; would not have update anyway if not for Zandy's nagging :P
anyway life has been messy ):
with lots of things happening ,
but still i'm smiling , because i know everything would be alright .
anyway ; life would be more then i am .

i love you zandyyyyyyyyyyyyy !

2009-07-02T04:12:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to youuuu ,
Happy Birthday to youuuuuuuuuu ,
Happy Birthdayyyy to ZANDYYYYYY
Happyyyyy Birthdayy to YOU !

You're 15 years old already ! (:
but still as ADORABLE !
you just get me head over heels whenever i see you ,
it's just something inside me that makes me want to
HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG you and never let go !

and yes , i do love you .
i can't say how much i love you ,
i've been saying since .... very long ago :P
but still , i love you more then that .
i can't explain in words how much you mean to me .
i won't let you go (:

i love you baby .
& HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN !

`kisses&hugs_withbucketfulloflove !

love ,
your hubby - Nic !

2009-06-26T00:50:00.003+08:00

To:ZANDYCHAN ,

i seriously have never felt like this before ,
you can give without loving ,
but you can't love without giving ,
i never did understand this theory phrase ;
that was , until i met you .

it's such a joy to be giving ,
and i really enjoy being with you .
words have been said to be ,
serious talks , casual ones .
but they've not altered my decision
& I've decided I'm sticking with you .

through thick and thin ;
through your ups and my downs.
with bad times and good comings ,
i'll be there .
Be it rain or shine ,
i'll be there for you .

i love you , beloved :D

Your's Sincerely,
From:NICHOLASCHAI

2009-06-18T03:06:00.003+08:00

i feel so empty when i don't see you ;
and i feel so weak when i miss you .
i feel so happy to have this wonderful you ;
and i get so excited when i am meeting you .
my girl , i want to know you feel the same way too ! (:

to : My Girl , Zandy Chan .

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2009-06-08T21:50:00.006+08:00

i want to rap like Eminem .
give me the talent to play floorball like Nede .
let me play the drums like Travis Barker .
how i wish i can produce music like Papa Roach.
give me the Tattoos of Jacoby Shaddix.
if i could have the hair of Bill Kaulitz ?

Yes .

i'm so so so so so looking forward to going out with zandy !
i loveeee you ! ; yes yes , i dooooo !

2009-06-06T01:38:00.002+08:00

I'll run away.

I think it's time that I should leave

I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave

2009-06-04T23:34:00.002+08:00

i don't think it's cool , i don't know about you .
or do you think it's funny to say "i love you" to anyone ?
watch your limits , and while you're at that , watch your words .
one thing i don't share , is the one i love.

you have your girl ,
what do you think you're doing/saying ?
if you're cheap , that's your business .
don't make it mine .

if you make it mine , i assure you ,
you won't want to know what will happen next .
firstly , it's been long since i'm feeling like this ,
trying to keep my cool as i might ;
this is your last warning.

2009-06-02T22:49:00.002+08:00

sorry for MIAing to long !
i'm going to a have a BSE exam tomorrow .
BSE as in Business Enviroment ; and i really want to ace it .

and i'm so looking forward to thursday's floorball training ,
how i wish training can be often as ... everyday ?

i miss zandy .
i want to see you everyday !
let catch a show together soon , alright ? (:

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i love the way you stand in front of me and hug me
i love the way you kiss me on the lips .
even the way you kiss on the cheeks.
i love you (:

2009-05-27T23:16:00.005+08:00

sometimes i just reminiscence about the times of the past ,
and sometime think why did i make that choice back then ?
why did i let go of certain things ?
and why did i choose to say those hurtful words ?

when i was young ,
often when i went to bed ,
i'd lie down on my pillow and think about the things that happened during the span of the day ,
and as i wished , i went to sleep .
always thinking that i could alter what happened today ... in my dreams .

how good would that be ?
just to alter everything wrong into right .
to erase every sad moment , and change it into a sweet memory ,
to leave only strings of memories that would bring a smile to my face .

sadly , it's not possible.
no matter how much i wished it to be ,
it's still not possible.

i don't know if i'm being paranoid ,
but i just don't feel good when you're doing all these .
i don't feel secure .

2009-05-26T01:39:00.002+08:00

my girl , i can't stop thinking about you .
it's you i think about when i go to bed ,
it's you i think about when i get up ,
it's still you when i walk to school ,
and it'll be you when i'm on the train tomorrow.

as long as i'm living ,
i'll be waiting
as long as i'm breathing ,
i'll be there
whenever you call me ,
i'll be waiting
whenever you need me ,
i'll be there.

i promise , i love you zandy (:

2009-05-21T23:18:00.003+08:00

blog skin changed , thanks to baby ! :D

anyway , floorball training was canceled today ,
I'm utterly disappointed that it was .
i'm starting to think the teachers in charge ,
are taking floorball as a means of hobby/or because they have to ,
i do hope trainings will increase as we edge nearer to the Nationals .

got 38/50 for my BSE test ,
not the best , but was shock to get that result .
truthfully speaking , i did not study ,
i just wrote down what i had listened in class ,
and yes , that got me 38 marks .

now , as i speak ,

i just to state down that as of today ,

i , Nicholas , wants and will be committed to school ,

attending with or without reason ,

unless reason genuinely valid .

I work for my future ,

i go to school , for no one eles , but myself .

as i pick up this fresh leaf ,

i'm ready for all challenges that come for me ,

i won't fall , but even if i do .

i'll get back up .

Yours truthfully ,

NIC

2009-05-15T21:23:00.002+08:00

one week has passed and
I've been early for all 5 days of my school ,
call that a miracle ,
i rather call it discipline .

i hope i can sustain this level ,
until i leave ITE ,
or even better ,
with everything i do in life .

anyway , I've not seen my floorball coach yet ,
apparently he is in Finland refereeing some matches ,
i seriously do hope my training can increase
from once a week to about three times a week.

i want to win something this time
for the glory of myself
and for the name of my school ,

what i have won ...
in my primary school years .
P4 - Gold
P5 - Gold
P6 - Silver

Sec 1-5 - Nothing .
nevertheless , i had lots of fun during my sec school days .

someone once told me , in order to achive your goals ,
write them down .
so here i am now ... writing my goal(s) for 2009.

1. To get first , second or third in the nationals.
2. To score 11 competition goals by the season 1 .
3. To make it into the national team.

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i love you too zandy ! :D

2009-05-13T22:38:00.003+08:00

Yayyyyyyyyy ; school starts at 12nn tomorrow .
*screams for 23.5 seconds*
yeah ! at last, i can sleep longer ! *snores*

tomorrow i'm meeting Zandy after her ECP outing
and yes , i'm excited !
i'm always excited when i'm meeting her ,
can someone tell me why ?
" A: Because you're crazy in love with her "
ohh ... i see i see .

i miss zandy ! D:

2009-05-08T22:12:00.004+08:00

Met Zandy today after school ,
and went to the library to study ,
after that went to eat ,
and walked around , then sent her home .

i guess it does not matter what we do ,
as long as i'm with her ,
anything is a joy .
had an AWESOMEEEE time with her today .
and i believe there would be better days to come.
because in God , all things are possible.

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i want to turn over a new leaf ,
but i can't find that fresh leaf .
i hope i'm given one last chance ,
just one last chance to prove myself worthy.

i bear the consequences for my actions ,
whatever it is ,
i'll have a smile on my face ,
and take whichever route i have .

because now ,
i just feel so fortunate ,
to have everything around me ,
to have everyone around me .

because in God , all things are possible.
i stand by faith and proclaim !

2009-05-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

you know sometimes you just sit still in the bus ,
plugged on to your music ,
and you just think .
about memories ,
good memories bad memories ...

you smile as you continue thinking ,
then *snap* , you're pulled back to reality ,
and you realise that memories and just memories ,
and you've lost everything you had .

you wish you had done more ,
you wish everything was back to like when it was ,
but it's all gone now ,
nothing can be done .

and as you lie down on your pillow ,
tears just flow down your face ,
because you know you could have just did something more ,
because you know it's all gone .

that's how i feel.

2009-04-30T23:37:00.007+08:00

` i love you

:[)

2009-04-28T00:50:00.003+08:00

today ...

i thank God the sun rose for me ( Yes. )

i thank God for an awesome floorball training ( sweat it all out )

i thank God for a new Blast floorball stick ( cost 108 SGD)

i thank God for my class ( united we stand )

i thank God for her ; Baby ! <3 ( i love you )

i thank God for being early today ( i reached school early )

i thank God for a pair of ears ( i listened during POA lecture )

i thank God for everything i had ,

i have ,

and will have .

Because i know my God made a way for me .

Nic.

Flooooooooooooorball !

2009-04-27T07:35:00.001+08:00

I lean against the wind, pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy

I wish you were here .

as i go to school now ; i miss you .

and i hope to see you soon .

with love ,

Nicholas.

2009-04-25T00:04:00.004+08:00

W/e

"i don't effing care."

i'll do what i have to ,

to get what i want .

kthxbye.

2009-04-21T21:01:00.003+08:00

Floorball ! it's time to put my 9 years of floorball experience into good use .

i will make it into the nationals .

i Will , not i'll try .

2009-04-19T11:18:00.004+08:00

i'm not giving up , i hope you'll carry on too .

2009-04-16T01:39:00.002+08:00

you know sometimes you just feel weak ,
you feel like something is wrong .
you know something is wrong ,
but there's just nothing you can do ,
but just keep carrying on .

i feel i'm drifting away from you ,
am i missing you too much ,
or is it a reality ?
i really do hope it's not .
i want to be thinking too much .

we've come this far ,
too far to just let go ,
but girl , i just want to let you know.
that i love you .

i don't say this because i'm bored ,
i don't say this because i have to ,
i don't say this because it's a habit .
i say it because i want to .
and everytime i tell you that i miss you ,
i really do mean it .
and everytime i tell you i love you ,
i hope you'll feel it .

Written by : Nic
To : You , my girl .

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2009-04-13T20:38:00.002+08:00

if loving her is wrong , i don't want to be right .
i thought i respected you , "thought" is a powerful word.
to advice is one thing , to choose my decisions is another .
to protect is one , to be possessive is another .
i believe i have the rights to pave my own path in life .
i believe we both do .

am i doing an unholy thing ?
please tell me if i am .

are you going abit too over ?
I'm in no authority to judge .

if being together brings consequences ,
i'll bear all of them .

"Many waters cannot quench love, neither can floods drown it."
~ Songs of Solomon 8 : 7 ~

2009-04-12T02:00:00.002+08:00

Girl , i miss you so bad

p.s i was asleep . but i woke up to post this to let you know. (:

--back to bed.

2009-04-10T01:49:00.002+08:00

what do i see myself (?) years from now ?

to be a floorball national .
to learn muay thai or kick boxing
to have a tattoo of my design
to be able to enter poly .
to play for singapore (floorball)

....

2009-04-08T23:43:00.007+08:00

i'mback:DDDDD
sorry for not updating recently ,
a thousand apologies.
[not to PandaChan]

Easter is coming ,
o yeah , i'm excited .
can't you tell i'm excited !
as excited as how much i would like to play floorball !

and i just checked clementi has floorball ,
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
can't you see i'm excited ?
just about as excited i am about easter .

Alright , it ends here .
i'm excited.

Tag replies .
Crystal : i didn't beat here . it was my file who hit her , i repeat . MY FILE !
Jiaqi : Yes yes , i'm alright . Thanks ! (:
Darling.Girl : yes yes , i miss you soooooo much ):
Crystal : i won't faint , i was taking lyrics from a song ._.
Darling.Girl : hees , i will take care of myself de . i promise :D
ღMichelle : No need scared DM de . DM kp , you kp back ! :O
Darling.Girl : baby <333 ! i loveeeeeeee you ! {:

2009-04-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

Cause sometimes you just feel tired.
You feel weak
and when you feel weak you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you,
you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you
and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter,
no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face
and collapse.

update again when i'm back to normal.
sorry.

ShinEska .

2009-03-25T05:28:00.002+08:00

i want to start school , i'm excited
and i'm going overnight cycling this sat -> sunday .
so so so so excited !

Grr , i want to join stikeforce,
i guess i have to approach the Strikeforce booth myself .

and i want to learn kick boxing !
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRR
felix says he'll help me ask about someone
conducting a kick boxing class or something .
Woot ! , soooooooo looking forward to it (:

Alright , i'll update again ,
i promise :D
going jogging now .

Darling.Girl is missed .
missing you is the addiction.
first step to every cure to every problem is to admit your problem .
so here goes ,
"i miss you sooooo bad ): "
next step is to find the cure !
the cure is seeing you :D
help me , i need to see you .
dyingggggggggg to see you ! D:

2009-03-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

Grrr ! , i'm tiredddddddddddddddddd of sleeping -.
tell me what i can do ,
okay , i shall open up this time for discussion ...

see what bored people do ?

okay , i'll continue looking for more NICEEEEE music (:

Girl ; i miss you . :D

2009-03-20T10:43:00.005+08:00

ever thought why things don't happen your way ?
ever thought why bad things are happening to you ?
ever had someone you love so much ,
walk out on you ?

ever felt left out ,
when everyone eles is having fun ?
even felt so tired of everything ,
that you just don't want to move anymore ,
and just want to give up ?

have you ever cried silently ,
because showing how you feel ,
would only bring you more hate ?

or ; have you even been loved soooo much by someone ? [:

only the last above sentence ,

is true for me <3

2009-03-17T05:00:00.002+08:00

Sentosa this coming wed ,
time would be from 11AM - (?)
anyone who wants to go ,
give me a SMS or ring (:
BEFORE , this wed

Nic - 92253100

i'm risking stalkers
so i'll remove my number after wed xD

i'll be waiting your call !

*winks*

Nic signs off .

2009-03-14T23:24:00.005+08:00

so Panda wants to learn shuffle :P ,

and i was thinking ...
melbourne shuffle , jumpstyle , breakdancing , beatboxing , rapping ... and so on ,
how do people get so amazingly good in it ?
talent or hard work or passion ?
it really sets me thinking ,
can people who work hard over take those who have natural talents ?

take Junior (break dancing) for example .

talent or hard work ?

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or Eminem ; rapping ?
people have also labeled the Blacks as better rappers ;
or rather , the best rappers .
but Eminem is white ; and people is labeling his as Best .

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and ; lastly lets talking about martial arts .
muay thai , kick boxing , TKD , MMA ...
Mike Zambidis is from Greece
he is short ; but he does not let his height hinder him .
and he is humble , he truly gains my repect .

so , you decide .
passion , talent or hard work .

Signing off ,
NicAKAShinEska

2009-03-11T04:06:00.001+08:00

11 March 2009
4.06AM

tell me you love me ;
that's all i want to hear .

2009-03-09T02:23:00.004+08:00

thinking about the things i've done ;
thinking about the things i could have done ,
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wondering about the things i've always wanted to do ;
wondering about the things that all went wrong ,
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pondering about what i've done with my life ;
pondering about what i've not done about my life ,
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wanting to do so much more then this ;
wanting to get out of this vicious cycle of faliure ,
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trying to get a new life ;
trying to stop doing all the stupid things i've been doing ,
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having a longing to learn muay thai ;
having monetary boundaries ,
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it's not a interest to learn ;
it's a wanting to fight ,
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believing i would get into clementi's floorball school team ;
believing i would then get into floorball national team ,
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it's not just a dream ;
it's a achievement i want to achieve before i leave this earth ,
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monetary issues won't hinder me ;
words won't stop me from doing what i want ,
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i will do whatever it takes ;
to achieve what i've dreamt all my life
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As said by Nic ;
ShinEska .

2009-03-08T09:52:00.003+08:00

sick sick sick .
i'm sick !
fever ; severe headaches ; dizzy spells .

woah , i almost passed out during my trip to church yesterday ;
was on the train ; suddenly felt very tired .
so i closed my eyes ; for a few stops ... i "slept"
when i reached boonlay ; i stopped up and walked out ;
i was like ... woah ; i'm feel so wobbly . ><"

service was alright ;
was very sleepy ,
after service went to BEST to fellowship ;
no appetite ; i'm dying !
i'm lacking from sleep ; and now eating enough .
i can't sleep ; and i always got no appetite
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
why like that ! ):

o well ; in order to not let someone worry ;
i'll try to sleep ;
i promise (:

i love you
whether it's wrong or right ;
though i can't be with you know ;
know my heart is by your side .

Darling.girl ; i love you.

2009-03-06T01:09:00.004+08:00

i'm sure you've seen people who think highly of themselves
i'm sure the way the behave disgust you ;
well , i've come across one .
ahh ; o well , i just hope you'd wake up .
i won't bother lowering my intellectual level to that of an idiot ;
to quarrel with you ;
you've well versed in the ways of an idiot ;
you're sure to beat me .

HAHAHAHA

Nic
ShinEska

2009-03-05T04:24:00.002+08:00

it's 4.24 AM ! ; and i can't sleep ,
i miss PANDAAAAA !
i want SCHOOLLLL !
i want to GO OUTTT !
i want SHOPPINGGG !
i want YOUUUUUUU!

we'll make it through ;
and i hope you'll be the one is share my life with ,
and i wish you could be the one i die with.

though it may be lyrics ;
but it's what i truly feel .

2009-03-05T03:42:00.002+08:00

Irene: I once thought she was soft spoken... That was until i heard the almighty treadmark scream from her... i'd remember her for that.
Faridah: Lets see, The Dancer. Yes, when i think of dance, i think Faridah. You've made yourself a name here (:
Kenneth: My one and only regarded Brother , never failing to treat me like a brother... what can i say, YOU SUCK , no seriously ; i mean it.
Kimberly: One of the bookworms! I've tried and tried and tried to beat you in studies, and we all know the results ... All the best!
Stacy: When they said "look are deceiving" , they meant Stacy! , innocent on the outside, wild on the inside! All you guys out there , get her number!
Huimin: Never fail to make me laugh , althought i always try to control... Jiayou! :D
p.s i still owe you half a page of FHM !
Alicia: The one of the only two hot ones! (the other one is me) and the undisputed maths top. ( i'm the undisputed maths top loser ) .
Liuying: The true softspoken one, adds a hint of "china-ness" in our class! , Liuying, you're the reason why 5b2 is so hot!
Yusri: The #1 Comedian in my honest opinion, that's if ... He is one of the people you can't sit beside when you really want to study, i'm serious .
Adib: Truly reliable and responsible, who dares not to pay up money for collection, will face Adib. Aidil: I always see him dancing out of the blue, and doing things ... that just seem to be not at the right time , but they always seem funny .
Azman: He is handsome, he is fit . I can see you girls drooling from her, what are you girls waiting for!
Amirul.Jo: I know you for ONE thing, how you always amaze me with your kicks from the middle of the field, and that amzing curve, before it lands in the net. TEACH ME!!
Muhd: Forever cool. The one of the only two hockey Captains i truely respect! (:
Zul: We have a NIE a band member in our class, now tell me how many classes have that. Zul, Our JC boy!
Weijie: My close friend, my Dota kaki , Chongpang kaki , he treats me like a yonger brother. Thanks :)
Nicole: One of the Smart ones who just ... seem to be born smart, no need study also can axe exam ; i'm starting to think you cheated !
Azyan: Define Azyan ; Chiobu. well, that was sincere... at least in my honest opinion.
Fadilah: i always mixed her name up with Faridah when i first met her, i can differenciate their names apart now! i'm smart, i know :D
Questina: Our Noisy Queen. if she was not in school, it seems our ears were spoiled. We just could not get used to the silence without her.
ChuYun: My long lost ... Maple kaki, and... oh, i still owe you chocolates O.O .
Jiaqi: Without you , i think 5b2 would not have been 5b2 . 5b2 would not have been defined as noisy ... and noisy .. and yes! , NOISY! , but we love you around (:
P.s Her hair seriously like burnt ._.
Jeniffer: I had a hard time trying to spell her name ... and i always mixed her chinese name with someone eles ...
Val: Art Representative , Art Fanatic . Art ... Think Art ; Think val.
Trevor: Want to learn Japanese? I have great news for you! Free Lessons ! Just contact this guy for more information. For Lady students, contact me first! :D
Tarine: Petite , .... and sleeping half of the time . That explains why half of the time, class is exceptionally quiet .
XiangJun: Our music lover , still serving the band at sec 5 , now, tell me where eles can you find such sheer love for music?

5B2: I'd miss you guys for all the "wrong reasons" , being the notorious class, being the noisiest, being the class that chased away the most teachers, being the class that no teacher can stand, bring that class that matured over time, being the class that stood united in the face of punishments and scoldings. We've made history for ourself, for all the above noted reasons, we've become more like friends to teachers, rather then a Teacher-Student relationship, that's what special about us. We speak freely to teachers, often called "not respecting teachers" , but teachers who know us well enough know that we speak this way, and they respect that. Not many classes can achieve that , and We made it.

As Written by Nic,
i'd Miss you guys (:
ShinEska.

2009-03-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

and so ; school is starting soon ,
and i AM excited ; very excited .
like WOOHOOO excited !

i've not been able to sleep well recently ;
i wonder why ,
maby i need to go out there ,
and exhaust myself .
staying at home all day hurts ,
it's boring ;
I WANT TO GO OUT !
okay ... i'll go find something to do now .
until then ,
see you ! (:

if loving you is wrong ;
i don't want to be right .
you just make me breathless ,
but i don't know girl ,
it seems this is going no where ?

2009-03-01T20:23:00.003+08:00

okay ; i'm going for interview tomorrow ;
wish me luck !
hope that they won't accept me so readily ;
because i'm too good . (:

i'm so looking forward to sentosa !
and i'm sooooooo looking forward for soon to arrive.

will update again ! :D

Pandaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !

2009-02-28T05:59:00.027+08:00

after 2 hours ; many screws ups ;
i've done it !

p.s this is for you ;
hope you like it (:

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2009-02-28T05:45:00.010+08:00

Days without you : a week ; exactly .

feels like just yesterday you told me

you love me ;
i wish i can rewind ;
to when it was sweet ,
to when it was me&you ,
i can only dream though ;
beacuse reality hurts bad;
but i'll continue dreaming ,
i would never stop dreaming ;
because it's you i'm dreaming of .
and i won't let my faith drop,
i would never stop hoping
that we'll be together;
dream with me,
would you ?

2009-02-27T04:21:00.000+08:00

Days without you : 6.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

girl ; i miss you D:

2009-02-26T01:48:00.001+08:00

Days without you : 5.

it's 1.48AM therefore it's day 5 ...

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cos
I'm counting on A new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning.

2009-02-25T15:20:00.003+08:00

Days without you : 4.

memories that are full of fun ;
full of laughter ,
full of sweetness ,
but they're gone.

i'm just wondering ;
if i didn't ask if we could be together ,
this would not have happen .

heh ; i miss your SMSs ,
i miss your nudges ;
i miss you ...

if i should be gone tomorrow ;
i want to love you today ...
for the last time .

2009-02-24T23:00:00.005+08:00

Days without you : 3 .

i hope this number would one day stop ....

i thought i lost you somewhere ;
but you were never really there at all .

2009-02-23T14:19:00.003+08:00

Days without you : 2 .
it feels like forever ...

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

i'd give anything , just to have one day with you ... again .

2009-02-22T14:53:00.009+08:00

i can feign ignorance during the day ;

where i can fill my mind with other things ,

i can act as if nothing happened ,

in the evening ;

when TV shows are aplenty ,

but when i go to sleep ;

my mind is clear ;

rather .. it's full of thoughts ;

thoughts of you ;

thoughts of us ;

thoughts of why ;

or simply ; thought of why not ?

visions of the past ;

sights of the present ;

and dreams of the future ,

i've come this far to let go ;

you've got to understand ,

i'm not letting go of something i've worked so hard for ,

i'll be right here ; waiting for you ,

as my life goes on ; i'd still be waiting for you ,

i'd still be here ; right here waiting for you.

with bucket full of love ; Nic .

2009-02-21T22:31:00.004+08:00

i'm just lost for words ;
my fingers are tired ,
my heart is down ;
and i'm sad .

if there's the extreme for sad ;
i'm that ;
i just feel so messed up ;
so trashed ;
no mood to open my mouth to speak ,

you think it's easy as you say ?
"is it the right time" ;
"i think you're too young" ,
well apparently ;
No , it's not .

i don't know ;
my respect for you ...
i don't know where it went ;
so ... " i'll speak to him"
so ; it's my fault ?

it's my fault that i feel in love with a girl ?
a girl ; so perfect in my eyes ,
if you think it's my fault ;
i won't let this fall ,
two people can control my life ;
God & my parents ...

if things must get ugly ;
it would .
trust me ...
i've tried my best to honor you ;
but ... i don't know ,
this just seems beyond what i can handle .

will i even get the chance to love you again ?

2009-02-19T20:52:00.008+08:00

it's getting boring at home ;
especially when i'm all alone .
i'm so looking forward to school ,
although it's far ... very far .
but at least i'm out of this boredom ;
but school is like 2 months away ?

kays ; when i'm bored , i look like this ...

and i do things like taking pictures of the King of ahguas ...

or ... irritaing people by taking pictures ...

or trying to act cool for the camara ...

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lastly ; whether i am bored or not ;

i miss my panda , badly )':

2009-02-18T22:54:00.003+08:00

ever felt so near to your dream ;
yet just a barrier in front of you ,
stopping you from grabbing it ?

now the barrier is higher authority ;
and my dream is you ....
the sweetest dream i'll ever have ,
i don't know ; i just feel this ...
pain in my heart ;
agony in my tears ,

i ask why is this happening ;
i want to understand ;
why do i deserve this ?

is it going to end like this ?

2009-02-18T00:04:00.008+08:00

below was what you asked for ;

-when you're sick ; I'll be taking care of you
-when you're hungry ; i want to be there to cook for you
-when you need someone to hug ; I'll be your teddy bear
-when you're angry ; vent it on me
-when you're sad ; i want to be there to cheer you up
-and when you're happy ; I'll be there to make you feel happier .

would you give me the honor of loving you ;
caring for you ;
sharing your burdens ;
killing your boredom ,
dividing your sorrows ;
lending you a shoulder when you cry ;
and hug you and tell you everything would be alright ;
would you ?

2009-02-17T19:09:00.002+08:00

i don't know ; i just feel ... lost today ,
today seems like a weird day ;
seems like everyone is ignoring me ,
avoiding me ...

and the feelings ain't nice ,
everything seems to be falling apart ;

..

i just hope i'm thinking too much .

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2009-02-16T22:58:00.014+08:00

oh no ; my eyes are itchy ;
i've got a irritated nose ;
my stomach is grumbling ,
my fingers are typing ,
oh yeah , i'm blogging ...

alright ; this is what happens when i'm bored ;
and when i miss someone so dearly ,
that i just can't explain how i feel .

and FYI
Panda is loved ;
i mean it .

no wait ...
i lied ....
HAHAHAHAHAH

Zandy Chan is loved more then loved.
above and beyond the phrase :
" i love you " ; because ;
i just love her ; so much ! [:

2009-02-15T22:01:00.005+08:00

before i start anything ;

i must say ,

Panda ; i miss you .

Pardon me for not updating recently ;
had some problems with blogger ,
BIG thanks Panda for helping me solve that . (:
2 days to knowing whether i'd be posted to a school .
whatever is it ;
God will decide the route ,
but it's up to me to work hard wherever i go .
to those who say i can't do it ,
it's Nic Aka ShinEska Aka Tortoise you're talking about ;
me , can't do it ?
that's a really good joke ;
i'd give you a A+ for trying so hard though .
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Introdution : A story about a really cute girl and her .. friend BabyZan !
Storyline : A story about a really cute girl and her .. friend BabyZan !
What is it about : A story about a really cute girl and her .. friend BabyZan !
What this story is really about : A story about a really cute girl and her .. friend BabyZan !
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The backbone of this story : A story about a really cute girl and her .. friend BabyZan !
Moral of the Story : A story about a really cute girl and her .. friend BabyZan !
Introducing ....

BabyZan !

Woooo ; cute right ?

she's living with Panda ,

playing with Panda's other soft toys ,

but BabyZan is special alright ; because it came from someone special . :D

and it was for someone special .

i love you ; love love ! (:

2009-02-11T11:21:00.000+08:00

okay ; i guess i need to work things around here .
i need a tag board ; some music , some profile issues ,
i'll be working on it ...

you're unbelievably sweet ;
and you're so pretty ,
no I'm not , exaggerating ,
it's just what i see ,
seriously speaking ;
you're beautiful beyond description ,
and has anyone told you ,
that you're extremely cute ?
No one is perfect ;
but you're the most perfect girl I'll ever meet.

.......

i'm worried i'm becoming boring to you
as the days pass .

2009-02-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

i stand believing that there would be a way ;

well well , went service on saturday ,
it was well ... um , intresting ?
today's sunday , and i'm bored.
i'm bored ....
*hint hint*
i'm bored ....
you guys *cough* can ... *cough* jio me out ! (:

well , now awaiting school posting 2nd intake results .
it's getting ... tense .
i'll know my results next week .
i've never been so desperate for a school ;
so desperate to study ,
i'd never have dreamed i'd be so eager to study .
but o well , God will provide a way ,
i stand believing ; in faith.

i love you ; do you? (: